I feel like I'm in limbo, just waiting for the next stage of my life to start up. At least I know what direction I'm going in and there is a plan now.
I used to be so sure of myself. I wrote articles and poetry will some success. Now, I feel like I've lost both my audience and my voice. I don't know what I have to say. I don't know what I believe in and what I'm supposed to be doing with it. I am afraid of scorn as my only reception to my work. I also wonder if blogging is hubris if it is personal in nature. Yet, I find that the books that touch me the deepest are deeply personal in nature.
Once I get through all this transition, I have a memoir to write. I don't know when that will be. I know it has to be when I can write without a self-righteously angry tone anymore.
Am I no longer willing to take risk for the sake of my art? How should I be spending my energy this summer? How do I feel inspired when I am a participant, not just an observer? What role does the divine play in my life?
And finally, a quote I came across today, "Grief has no face." - Cheryl Strayed.
Hi, there. We don't know each other. But I wanted to take a moment, and reach out after reading this. When I discovered your blog, I was struck, instantly, by the strength and grace of your prose. It held a beauty that spoke of life with a voice I so wanted to hear more of! So, I subscribed, even though you hadn't written anything for some time, in hopes of hearing more. And I've been watching my RSS reader in hopes, that, maybe, I'd see more. As a writer, I all too well know what it's like to fear your work won't be accepted, and that's why I'm reaching out now. Your work is beautiful, and I hope I can encourage you to continue publishing it on here! Know, at the very least, you'll have a welcoming audience with me!
ReplyDeleteHi Stephanie. Glad to hear from you. I'd enjoy corresponding with you. Do you have a blog? What do you write? My email address is maggi.horseman@gmail.com. Hope to hear from you.
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Maggi, my apologies for taking so long to get back to you. Life has been insanely busy! I don't have a blog, but corresponding would be great! Writing is something I'm taking up after a years long writer's block hit me, and it feels amazing getting back into it after so long! I used to write poetry, but now its turning into short stories that are fantasy-ish in nature, but really don't fall into any sort of category that I can readily identify...they're just sort of their own strange beasts. Anyway, I'll either email you, or find you on Facebook. We have at least one mutual friend on there, so finding one another sholdn't be too hard. It will be good to talk more, and maybe even share works-in-progress! Great fellow writer friends are always wonderful to have!
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