The Capricorn resumes the Climb

Eva Ro via Horoscopista found on venuslotus.com

I am grateful for many things in my life.  I was raised by loving, responsible, kind, compassionate parents who were able to provide for all of my basic and not so basic needs.  I'm smart, sensible, creative, and attractive.  I don't want to squander my gifts.  In fact, I often feel drawn to the pull of my destiny.  Now this gives me hope.  A couple of years ago, the course I took down the river was so new I was only cold, wet, and terrified.  Now I am excited for the strange new land I approach.

Last month I attended a 2 day dream seminar.  It was awesome!  A couple of weeks ago I had a dream that taught me a very important lesson.  The coolest thing about the dream is that before the dream seminar, I would have interpreted the dream differently and not understood the critical part of the message.  The message was I was not ready for the test I was to take yesterday because I hadn't trained for it appropriately.  The dream also warned me not to pass the buck and if I failed, I did so knowingly and only had myself to blame.  Okay, message received.  So, I studied my brains out, and yesterday I passed!  The best part of the success was that a year ago I doubt I could have remembered the information or focused long enough to learn it.  I have healed greatly from my trip down to rock bottom.  Paul affectionately likened it to the Capricorn jumping off the pinnacle of Mt. Everest and crashing at the bottom of the rocks at the bottom of the deepest caverns of the ocean.  I'm taking a parachute next time.

A lot of the new ideas I'm having and lessons I'm learning are not ones that are fully formed and cannot yet be shared on this blog.  It is not that the redefining and growth process isn't happening, however.  I still have to work on building my strength and new perspectives.  That way, when the ideas are ready to crown, they will be fully formed and breath in their own life in their own due time.

• At the Chicago Art Institute Museum, I was overwhelmed by the purity and volume of the the archetypal fields the great modern artists tie into.  For example, I have been reading the book of Job lately.  I walked into one gallery and was drawn, mouth gaping to a lamenting figure of Job, and I recognized him, from his face.  I didn't recognize the name of the painting, but the field associated with Job!  
• I listened to an inspirational speaker at the forum I attended.  She had many inspirational witticisms to share.  One was "Own your suckage".  I really didn't like this particular idea as I thought it sounded both led by negative ego and self-deprecating.   I reframed it to the following, "Make your faults work for you."  I mentioned this to someone over lunch and they were amazed that I could turn a phrase like that.  He decided it needed a name, so I interjected "reframing".  Basic psychology and basic NLP, that's all.  
• I have decided that while I am still polytheistic, I have decided I am not Wiccan nor NeoPagan any longer.  I think a more fitting description is Jungian Occultist. 
• I am really looking forward to studying, writing, and doing art starting in May.  I also plan on expanding my artistic presence in the world and will be doing some posters, note cards, and giclee prints.  Stay tuned!